November 25, 2022 Relative Attacks Me Leads To Imminent Threat of Homelessness

 On November 19, 2022 I moved into an abandoned property in a remote location with confidence in everything my half-brother told me being true. 

On November 25, 2022 He and three others came to the property one has borderline personality disorder and is abusive. This person had attacked me in 2019. After the 2019 attack I went to the desert homeless alone and squatted from 2020-2022 where I did get surgeries and become more mobile than I had been since 2002 before I became symptomatic of degenerative Chiari Malformation for lack of treatment aka Maltreatment Abuse and Neglect in Minnesota 2003-current, but had to flee the desert with guns following me and kingpins blocking me because local sex trafficker's were trying to snatch me and police and shelter's would not help. I have maintained a healthy distant but respectful relationship with that person. The person now insist that I have a "close friendship with them" because I entered this endeavor with my half-brother and if I don't and also if I do they are going to make me homeless and take my money if they have access to me, they said in front of the other three people. My half brother was one of them, he promised I would be safe and he'd prevent this but he didn't have the courage to stand up for himself or me. When he saw how it destroyed me and made me vulnerable he began and has not stopped emotionally abusing me too to absolve himself from the situation and abandon it but he left me in this remote space when he did so. It pushed me into panic attacks and a level of PTSD depression I haven't experienced in nearly decade, and never over a relationship. 

On December 2, 2022 I told my other relatives my sister, both brothers, my parents, a grandparent, my kids and the one relative that provided his number so it would be inclusive, I sent a group chat and I asked for them to participate in a group zoom to help me negotiate staying or leaving when there is an abusive person with mental illness that everyone is afraid to stand up to weighing in. Although they do not live at the residence they have access to it and me in it. I am not safe. On of my sons said they would participate. No one else would participate in protecting me and I cannot return to the trauma of cooperating with and protecting an abuser. My half brother and my relationship is irreparable. 

The part where I fight with life and medical goals without a therapeutic home environment is over. If I can avoid imprisonment, hospitalization, or death I will. However, that is not very realistic thinking and preparation helps minimize mental reaction to emotional devastation. I will pay a price for resisting abuse as I am paying a price for defensing myself from a random drug addict sexually harassing and stalking me. I matter "to me" unfortunately, I don't matter to my environment. The won't protect me and I must pay hefty prices for protecting myself - like squatting in the desert to get life changing surgery that was ordered and I was on insurance to pay for over a decade in the safety of my home in Minnesota but nobody wanted to do anything about this medical welfare fraud I complained of from 2003 to 2022.